Too Old for Snapchat, Too Young for Life Alert

Another birthday came and went. I feel like 23 will be the year that I will listen to oldies music more than the "now" music. It will hopefully be the year that I will be able to find a job that I really enjoy and can thrive in. It might even be the year where I realize my potential and feel my individual worth shining through. Maybe. Hopefully. Fingers crossed. 

This wasn't one of those BIG birthdays like 16 or 21 or 25 (a quarter of a century old = Yikes!!), so I just had two neighbors and my grandparents over to have pineapple upside down cake and key lime pie. :) Nothing big, nothing fancy, but it was nice to just be able to sit and relax and talk. After everyone left I opened presents. I got my wishlist canisters and a matching casserole dish from my parents, and I got a surprise gift from my little brother. He got me a Beauty and the Beast poster! I was SO EXCITED! Now I have the new Cinderella poster and the new Beauty and the Beast poster. I might have to keep this going with any other amazing princess movies Disney decides to remake. 

Turning 23 has also had its hard parts, I'm not going to lie. It brought on those feelings of failure and worthlessness even stronger than before. I am 23 years old. I should be able to find a job. I have a Master's degree for heaven's sake. Someone please hire me... But they haven't yet, so I am helpless with an upcoming payment on my student loan looming in the future, and now... a traffic ticket. I got my first speeding ticket. Talk about traumatic. 23 has not been kind to me thus far. 

So, with my old soul (as many of my old roommates called me), I sometimes still feel like a child. I feel much too old for Snapchat, but at least I know that I am also much to young for life alert. I am stuck somewhere in the middle of those two things. I am stuck in the middle of a lot of things right now. Sanity and insanity. Family ward and singles ward. Internship and job. 

So, as I wait ever so impatiently, I will keep applying for jobs, keep trying to find my place, keep working on staying busy, keep trying to keep the faith, and keep trying to do the right thing. It will all work out, so I'm told. It just has to...